Second ever blog.. deleted my first blog cause i didnt have the time to blog so i didnt want to waste much time on it as well. so i studied i played and i bearly passed my O levels so got into a course which sucked like hell . thats not important for now cause i was planning to slack throuhgout my first week. i still can remember vividly in my last post of my first blog. it was regarding me falling for u. i remember i was so happy that day i could not study for my prelims. and for the next few months i can't forget about the fun we used to have. even up till now i still can feel my love for u. lots of things happened. we broke up.. it was my fault cause i felt numb and made a foolish and rash decision to break up with u. i never felt so stupid in my life before. i didnt believe i continued thinking of u most of the time aft we broke up until now. its been hard on her and i ruined her holidays. in my heart i still sense ur presence.. will it ever be too late. is this how im gonna lose u. and i should have thought of this before making that fcuking decision. now that i want u back, it feels so hard to approach u. maybe its caused by me. i did this to myself. i broke her heart and broke my own and how dumb can that be. to think about it, im fcuked. i miss u baby. i still miss u alot.. i miss u while im working i miss u when im alone. i wish i can hold ur hand so tight and tell u how much u really mean to me but will it ever work? does she still love me? will she ever forgive me? will we be like before? im puzzled. i ask myself many questions. should i leave her alone and go with another guy in poly or somewhere else? its best for her not for me.. im selfish cause yes its fcuking true i still love her. i dont wanna see her leave with another guy. even if that guy can give what i can't. i wish for everything that i don deserve most importantly i know it will nv be granted. thats my consequence. bridget im sorry, bridget u will always have a place in my heart until the day u stop loving me which i guess already happened quite some time ago. even so.. i wish for us to be together again

Labels: whatever words i said in the past was true.. my love for u remains strong

Jeremy
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