Saturday, May 19, 2007
please i want it to come true one day i reallyhope
and its all about regretting. its normal that it happens. people come and go. but i haven left. not at all since last year. and i really want this cause its only in u whereby i can see what my future brings. people may think im stupid cause we have only been together for 2 months. but before this 2 months. aft i fell for u. until now. ups and downs we been through. and there goes my terrible mistake due to a numb feeling and thats what caused me to be who i am right now. shag depressed and feeling really horrible everyday. its been haunting me eeveryday and i know that i cant let this things haunt me anymore. everyone wants me to move on. including her. i know how much she wants me to get over it. but i really dont want to. cause i really want to be with her. no doubts about it. yes i may sound convincing. but i really wish for a chance so that i can prove that everything i said is true. its up to her whether or not i deserve it but i dont think so anymore. i see the way things are going on right now. i really dont deserve it.
the girl i really want to be with is u. and i guess i will have this feeling in me for a long time. i nv felt so shitty in my life before. at the sight of her right now. i feel like breaking down. my heart seems to be detoriating. and thats how she felt 3 months back or maybe worst. now its my turn.
i want to be that guy for u. i really want that. i want to prove that im not lying. i want to prove that all this is real. i want to prove that my love for u is that strong. and i want to make a difference.